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| I've wrestled with angels all my life
Its always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I'd fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn't be out here
Alone tonight..
There is nowhere in this universe to hide... | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | Danceradio.gr Chillout Stream | | Current Location: | Seattle, WA | | Subject: | established. | | Time: | 03:09 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/optimistic.gif) optimistic |
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| I am content, for the most part. There will always be contention and strife, but I am able to smile more than I frown... which a good indicator of sorts, I think. I am comfortable and secure.
I may not always accomplish the goals I set for myself, but at least I try. I'd call that progress. Speaking of, I need to formulate plans b through e, just in case I don't get hired by the SPD.
I want to find a new sport -- I'd like to try cycling, but when you consider the likelihood of my interest waning, the initial cost is relatively high. Rock climbing is appealing, but the gyms are located in an inconvenient area and it's not something I'd do regularly.
Maybe I'll put on some spandex and start rollerblading... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Every dream I have dreamt, I have accomplished.
Now it is time to wake up, and move on to my next dream. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Just got back from a ride along...
I signed up for the MAy 3rd test in Seattle.
I'm going to pass as a gift to myself for my birthday. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I’ve been drinking a coffee blend called ‘Jet Fuel’ from Coffee People all day. It’s not helping. I think I’m going to buy a Keurig machine though.
Some friends who posses polarizing personalities are out of town this week, I am looking forward to a little respite from our usual antics.
I am taking Thaitung to dinner on Valentines day. I really miss him. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| I am poised to do something rather important today. I'll let you know when I figure out exactly what that means.
I stopped an assault as I was driving home from the gym last night. A taxi driver was assaulting his fare, after they refused to pay double the price displayed on the meter. He broke one of the guys' noses, yet 911 refused to send an officer out. Lovely.
I also diffused a pretty tense situation at the gym between my friend and some guy on steroids.
People are interesting. And easily manipulated in situations where emotions run high. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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I had coffee with my friend, Marc. It's nice to know someone understands. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I know, I know.
Aside from the scenery and infrastructure, things never change.
It's always the same people, doing the same things as before.
I always have something disparaging to say about Portland.
And driving through the city (predictably) evokes a wistful nostalgia, particularly of my college years.
I think that is my favorite part, aside from visiting friends. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| To wax my own ego (and to feel better):
1) I ran another marathon.
2) Rebuilt infrastructure of several companies (including PBX, AD, BES, SQL, and other systems).
3) I paid off a substantial amount of debt, and was still able to help my family.
Yup, I told you -- a gap year.
I don't understand people who drink diet coke while exercising at the gym.
I still feel like crap.
Shame pulses through my heart
From the things I`ve done to you
It`s hard to face, but the fact remains that
This is nothing new
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| | .. when I am asked about my ethnicity, the first answer that comes to mind (and often spoken) is "honky". | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| I miss my father. And my brother and step-mom.
I've been thinking about moving to Florida to get to know them better. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Nearly a week after the fact, I figured I should write about the marathon.
It did not go well. For the first 10-12 miles, I ran with the 3:30:00 pack. My knees were loose and it was an easy pace to maintain -- I had concerns about both beforehand.
Around mile 13 or 14, a man wearing a marines t-shirt decided to push his way through the small pack running behind the 3:30:00 marker, causing me to twist my left knee and kick a curb with my right foot. I finished the last 13 miles or so in the worst pain I'd ever experienced and at a much slower pace than my goal of 4:30:00 hours. My final finishing time was 5:27:00, which is slower than last year.
I was upset and emotional at some points, especially when some of my friends declined to show a little support... but I'm glad I finished.
Other than that, I had a great extended visit to Portland. I spent a lot of time with Bill, had a lunch time adventure with Julio and took Josh to my favorite restaurant of all time -- Pambiche.
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| When conversing with an old friend recently, the distance between us quickly became apparent. I’ve come to realize many of my friends are still doing the same things they’ve been doing for years, whereas I’ve moved on. It is a sad truth, but it is certainly not cause for us to look down on each other. That’s all I have to say about it.
I push myself hard. Sometimes too hard, I think. I know it will be worth it. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The Feel Good Drag - Anberlin | | Subject: | the close | | Time: | 10:35 pm | | Current Mood: | upbeat |
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| | Today, I met with the "little" that was assigned to me as part of the Big Brother program and his family. We are different culturally, ethnically, socially, and generationally -- which I think will make for a positive and rewarding experience. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The Unforgiven II - Metallica | | Subject: | better than you. | | Time: | 09:53 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/calm.gif) calm |
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| At what point should I stand back and be satisfied with my accomplishments, possessions and position? Reflecting upon how hard life was a year ago, two years ago, etc... I feel like I should feel more satisfied than I currently do. And maybe I should cease lamenting the rocks left unturned and opportunities lost.
Oh well... I'll feel better after a haircut.
Off to the gym....
Edit: You know, screw that -- I have absolutely no regrets. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Valerie - Steve Winwood | | Subject: | out of. | | Time: | 12:48 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/annoyed.gif) annoyed |
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| Today resulted in a hefty blow to my ego, largely for reasons unknown. It bothers me that I allow myself to become so irritable. I think I need to invest in a costco-sized vat of PMS medication.
Tomorrow will be a good day.
(My typical mantra, no?) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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Notice:
1) The headline story is about a cat.
2) One of the Sub-headlines: "Pakistan test-fires nuclear-capable missile".
*sigh* | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Angel - Stabbing Westward | | Subject: | never | | Time: | 03:17 am |
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| The sky is a sickly orange color tonight; the air feels stale and trapped. It's been kind of day that is uncomfortable, no matter the climate controlled adjustments or lackluster events. I reserve the right to have a bad attitude when suffering from swamp ass.
There are strange sounds coming from the open window in my kitchen. It's strange how compartmentalized and separated I feel from my community... elsewhere, I would have the motivation to immediately ascertain the source. Now, I just don't care.
I think I need to stop being eating so much crappy food. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The Way I Are - Timbaland featuring Keri Hilson & D.O.E. | | Subject: | EndFest 16 tickets | | Time: | 10:09 am |
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| | I just scored three tickets to EndFest 16 for $10.77 a piece... why you ask? Well, the Smashing Pumpkins will be headlining. Who wants to go? ;-) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Yes, dear readers, I am one of the many iLosers waiting in line for the Apple iPhone.
I am currently stationed at the Northgate Mall, by the AT&T store entrance.There are about 10 people in line, the wind is a bit brisk and the rain clouds look to have passed... For now. *knocks on wood*.
Only 5 more hours to go... But I will have my iPhone, oh yes...
More status updates later... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| comment and I will....
1) Tell you why I friended you
2) Associate you with a song/movie
3) Tell a random fact about you
4) Tell a first memory about you
5) Associate you with an animal/fruit
6) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you
7) Show you my favorite user pic of yours
8) In return, you MUST spread this disease in your LJ (unless, of course, you already are doing that) | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | holy hell! | | Time: | 09:52 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/bounce.gif) bouncy |
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| Best. Coffee. EVER.
Stumptown Coffee plans to open roastery, two cafes in Seattle
Posted by The Oregonian April 30, 2007 09:09AM
Categories: Breaking News, Business
Seattle is about to get a taste of Stumptown.
Stumptown Coffee Roasters plans to open a Seattle roastery and a pair of cafes this summer, reports The Seattle Times.
"The freshness freaks who run the place refuse to deliver to most coffeehouses and restaurants that are more than 45 minutes from the Portland roastery," the Times reports. "To expand their reach, they're building a second roastery south of Madison Street and 12th Avenue near Seattle University."
The paper reports a second Stumptown cafe will open another at Pine Street and Boylston Avenue. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| If I were half as uncertain, half as much defined...
I've begun marathon training once again. (Portland Marathon in October, Disney World in January, '08)
So many layers of abstraction, so many choices. Sometimes I wish life would offer a simple choice.
Nothing is ever, ever simple. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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